Good morning all. It is presently 5:47, I have been up for 47 minutes. I hope that you are all sleeping soundly still, lucky sons-a-guns!
I apparently slept with my mouth open last night, which I hate. Not only is everything dry from your lips clear to your stomach, your tongue feels all hard and dried out and the worst of all, you have this terrible taste in your mouth. If I didn't know better (because I know I slept with my mouth open... and I know we don't have a cat) I would think that a cat shit in my mouth. Yeah, it's a disgusting comparison, but you all know exactly what I am talking about now, don't you?!
Yesterday I really didn't do too much. I didn't feel "like me" if that makes any sense. It was easy to chalk it up to the weather and just being worn out from all the neck breaking work we've been doing around here. I was trying to remember the last day I did nothing... Monday, when I took Tancy to the doctor. Every day since then (3 in a row) I've been all out gettin' it! So, I attributed my mood and lack of motivation to that. This morning I think ther might have been just a bit of "down" mixed in there. Not depression, just a bit low. Can't even explain it, other than to reconnect that to the weather and pace. Hormones possibly. Who ever really knows exactly why the feel low or down?
Anyway, I feel inclined to run through the events of my evening (since I have already told you about my morning and afternoon). I managed to put the hooks on the door backs (the kind that are mounted to a board and screw into a door). I also managed to put items on said hooks (the entire purpose of the hooks to start with). I unloaded the dish washer and put all those dishes away. I fed the pups. I took out some tilapia for dinner, yumm, I really do enjoy tilapia. Mandy came over and brought cauliflower. That was delicious too. I am telling you I have been craving home cooked food! I cooked the fish and she nuked the cauliflower.
Tancy gave her a tour of the house, Lillie's room, the new pantry and the deconstructed utility room (there's work yet to be done in there). I think she was impressed with all our work. She thinks the crib should be painted. I disagree. I am pretty sure Tancy does too. Its just important to me that the wood (it is real wood everywhere except the two end panels) remain that... not painted over. It's in good enough condition for that thankfully. Anyway, it wasn't too long before dinner was ready, we ate everything! All the cauliflower gone, all the tilapia gone. And pretty healthy in addition to being so freakin' yummy.
We ate, we visited, we tried to feed the shark (by we I mean Mandy and Tancy). Mandy went home. We got our baths and then to bed. We watched the newest episode of "Sober House" and then to sleep. It was 10:00 by then. I didn't just drift off to sleep, I fell slap off the side of the cliff. Honestly, I woke up at 1:45 and thought I'd only been sleeping for a few minutes. It was hard and fast. I went right back to sleep after my nightly stroll to the bathroom and didn't want to get up when Tancy did. I managed to fall back asleep... but the puppies were up and about (keep in mind that they aren't really puppies at all, nearly 3 & 4 years old). They are always ready to go potty, at the very least, when Tancy gets up for work in the mornings. I finally drug my sorry ass out of bed and started about my routine. Pups out, coffee on, pups in, pups fed, coffee fixed, plop down on the couch, visit a minute wtih Tancy, she leaves for work, I get on to blog. That's my day shift morning summed up pretty well.
Today I have a few bigger "To Do" items to mark off my mental list. I need to put all Tancy's tools, presently resting on my kitchen table, in a tote and out of the way. She wants to organize her tool boxes so that stuff we use regularly in the house can be kept in the house. Fine. I just need it off my table. So I'll take care of that later this morning. Daylight is my "start" time. Till then, I'm gonna sit right here and do as I please. What else? I need to put my trivets some place for now. I've asked our friend Gary to help me get creative in placing them. I don't want an entire trivet wall again... makes that one wall overpowering. But I don't want to put them where I can't use them... or store them away. Till then though, I need them off my counter.
If I can find the right stuff to do it, I have some things to put on the walls (some items in the hall bath and an item in the kitchen). Also, we really need to move the big picture on the "dining" wall since the corner shelf is crowding it now. I am not sure I will get to that today... could be a good excuse not to clean though, so I am keeping that in my back pocket. LOL. I'm just kididng, ya'll already know I'm not really a procrastinator... that should be obvious by all that we take on and my own personal list of things to do and things I've managed to get done.
Aside from those things I'd like to clean my kitchen (the microwave had an explosion while we were gone last... love to be left a mess) so I need to get that cleaned up. I was thinking I could get the bathrooms done today as well. Trying to keep the floors and dusting for tomorrow (they go hand in hand... no point in dusting first cause as soon as you sweep, it needs to be done again) and do most of what's left today.
However! I have a prenatal massage this afternoon that I cannot wait to go for! So I don't want to get overly involved in the house work and miss it. I will obviously need a shower before I go, so I have to be mindful of time. From there I need to go to Michael's or Hobby Lobby and get that damn projector I forgot to get yesterday.
Quick note, Miley Cirus (sp?) is on CMT right now, TV is on more for noise than anything. And I just absolutely cannot stand her. I mean, she's what, 15 and being allowed to date a 20 year old guy. We want to know why our kids are over sexed by the time they are 18... there you go! A kid who should be a role model for younger girls and girls her own age is already being allowed by her parents to behave more like an adult than a kid. There's no freakin' way Lillie will be allowed to date a 20 year old at 15. At 15 I really don't want her to even be dating yet! I try really hard to say what will and wont happen... cause we all know how that turns out... but you know what I am saying here. Is it that Miley is the bread winner and they don't want to piss her off and have her file for emancipation and take her money with her? She's a freakin' child! Grow a pair and be a parent for christs sake! Now all the girls her age or younger have the idea that they should have a hunky older boyfriend at age 15. Great, cause the costumes of "Hannah Montana" at Halloween weren't disturbing enough on the little ones. We had a two or three girls (about 10 - 12) come trick-or-treating to the house annd wearing Hannah Montana costumes. They got their candy and left with a Mom in tow. Tancy said "What are they suppose to be? Hookers?" I laughed, because that's exactly what they looked like and then I was sad because that's exactly what they looked like. Then I had to tell her who they were (I don't know how I knew). She was shocked that such young girls were dressed so provocatively. Personally, I think too many Moms want to be their daughters friends... but that's just my opinion... and again, we'll see how I handle things with Lillie. I really don't mean to seem so judgemental... but kids have enough friends, they need their parent(s) to be their parent(s). My Mom felt like my friend when I was heart broken and hurt... but make no mistake, she was always my Mom. Now that I am 30 our relationship has of course evolved... because she's no longer responsible for keeping me safe and teaching me life lessons. Not that she doesn't teach me still. She can just take a breath now and enjoy her hard work for all those years before now. Ladies, gentlemen, be parents to your kids.... it will be much more rewarding to be their parents now and friends when they are adults.
Ok, so that's Jodie's life lesson for the day... all because I heard that annoying little twit singing on the TV. LOL.
I could go on with celebrities and the examples they set for kids and young adults... hell, even everyone else sometimes... but really, it's not even daylight yet. I hate to rant so early in the morning. LOL. That's not entirely true either, but it's too early to get so twisted over people who don't live in the real world.
So. Anyway. Tomorrow Mandy is going to come over and help me get the floor done. I am so very thankful for that. I can sweep the floor... but then my back is hosed and I can't mop it. So I really need the help to get it done. I don't know why sweeping messes with my back so badly, but I can be very near tears before its half done. I've managed it and I could do it tomorrow on my own if I had to, but I am glad not to have to. I am also making a roast tomorrow. Tylor will be by to get the truck and the bed, I promised him I would cook something. It's only right, since Mandy is helping, that she get to eat too. Hehehe. Tylor will also pick up our print stand, we don't need it and he wants it... works out perfectly. I just want it out of my living room! I only have a few items left (tools and painting supplies count as two bulk items at this point for my own sanity) to find homes for... some of that, like the print stand, is going away completely. I'll be so glad to be done with that part of it all, finding homes for items. Makes me want to get rid of everything we own, which of course would be stupid because we would just accumulate more stuff, but it is very frustrating for me.
I can't think of much else this morning. My brain is all over the place already. My chiropractor was talking to me yesterday about my treatment plan. He said that it was hard to gauge what I would need, that everyone responds differently to adjustments and he already realized I wake up with a "head full of steam" in the mornings and run all day. Some days, I suppose he's right... lately specifically. But not always. I just feel pressed to get things done before time catches up with me. I've already told you what our schedule looks like and prior to this last week I was really concerned that Lillie would come and everything would still be a disaster. I am more confident now that we'll be fine... all that's really left is fixing the siding where they cut for the attic and making that look nice and neat (I have no idea when that will happen) and a storage solution (which I think I might have found) for our bathroom. Also, I found these things that affix in the bottom of your cabinets which basically amount to a flat drawer that pulls out, so you can put your pots on it and it rolls in and out preventing you from having to crawl in. I'd love to have that in my kitchen for just that purpose. No more dragging everything in the front out to get to something in the back. Awesome! They even make them with a top "drawer" for your lids. I have a shelf now, but the top part would make it even better. They have similar for the bathrooms, only instead of a flat moving surface these are more like bins that roll in and out. I just need to measure everything to see if they would work. And they aren't cheap... so I'll probably have to do one or two at a time (bathroom comes first). Tancy wants to repaint the kitchen blue, she really liked it that color. I did too... but I can't even think about that project right now. That will have to wait a bit for sure.
What was I saying originally? Oh, yeah! So the big projects IN the house are almost done for now (for now because you never know what we will get into down the road). The next projects will be outside; grass, deck, shed or outbuilding. That shouldn't involve wrecking the house, so those wont tax me too much (aside from financially). The house should really only require regular cleaning at this point. No more massive re-organization. At least until we have another kid and that back bedroom has to be reckoned with! But we aren't gonna make ourselves crazy taking that project on mentally right now. LOL.
What are your plans for the day? What's the weather like at your house? It's gonna be in the low 50's here today and raining again. That means the pups are inside all day. That means no open windows with a fresh, crisp breeze blowing in. That means no bright sunshine and clear blue skies to lift my spirits. I'll plug in the iPod, crank the tunes and make due... am I the only one that music helps? I can get a ton more done with some good music pumpin' than I can without it!
I am so excited about my Pops being here for a few days. He'll be here Monday. I miss him. I am so thankful for where we are in our relationship today. It's been work, for both of us. Before I got divorced I was so anxious to make him happy, have him be proud of me. Mom too, but Dad in a bigger way... maybe because Mom was more verbal about how she felt and really just in general. I lived my life based on how I thought they felt and what they wanted, as much as I could. When I got divorced and came out I guess it all went out the window. I needed to know who I actually was, live my own life and deal with the outcome good or bad. I think Pops might have blamed himself for some things. As a parent I can understand how he was going to feel that way no matter what, I think that's what parents do when their kids go through anything like that.... evaluate their responsibility for things. I believe he hurt more than I will ever understand, more than he will ever say. But, those events helped us to have a more honest relationship. I will always want his love and for him to be proud of me... but I no longer try to live my life based on how I think or even know he will feel. I live it for me, Tancy and now Lillie. I accept whatever comes along with that like any other adult. I truly feel because of this change in our relationship, and all the hard work we've done (and continue to do) to get here, today is happening. Six years ago, if I had been living away (wait, I was) he wouldn't have come to see me by himself... I don't think. He loved me, he missed me, we just didn't have that relationship. And truth be told, I wouldn't have asked him to. Again, I loved him, I missed him, we just weren't there. Now I pester him about coming to see me
. I think it's only right if Mom makes trips by herself that he should too. I enjoy that one on one time with each parent, tremendously. 10 years ago I never would have expected to have this time with my Pops. I am so thankful and so blessed and so happy that this day is here. I hope he has a great time, I am surely going to enjoy my time with him. I hope he's comfortable and happy and able to relax a bit. I am just so happy he's coming to visit!!
I have great family, on all sides. That's something I can't complain about. Don't get me wrong, we disagree, we have our issues... but when the shit hits the fan we are all covered cause that's just how it is! Arm in arm, side by side we will get through what life throws at us. And on the other side, we'll point and laugh at each others goofy face, trips, falls, jokes, etc. That's how it should be, right? It's work, like any relationship... your partnership or marriage doesn't carry itself, you have to work at it to make it what you want. It's the same with parents, siblings, cousins, aunts, uncles, neighbors and friends. So, if you don't have the relationship you want with someone....... CHANGE IT!
Wow, I am just on a soap box this morning. Must be pent up from all the blogging about the house! LOL. Needed something with a little meat on it!
Well kids, its still dark, but I should probably go get dressed, brush my teeth and get my game plan together for my day. I estimate I need to be in the shower around 2:00 - 2:30 at the latest. So I have 7 hours from now! I think I can get quite a bit accomplished in 7 hours. Lets see!
Have a fantastic day. Hopefully you are still sleeping. Lucky bastards. LOL. But if you are awake, I hope you are enjoying a nice hot cup of coffee (or tea) and slowly welcoming your day.
Love to all!







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