November 9, 2009

  • Baby Blessings

    Ok, so I listed my "battles", now I'd like to list my blessings.There are so very many, I'll try not to ramble... but if I do... So what?! LOL. These are the things that fill my cup to overflowing now that I am a Mom:

    • Seeing her beautiful, genuine, heart melting smile in the morning when she wakes up. She looks so happy to see you peek over the crib rail.
    • Hearing her talking to her sea creatures on the bumper pad when she's waking up in the morning or from a nap, before you go get her.
    • Watching her splash, and then her surprise and amazement, during her bath.
    • How she snuggles my neck when she isn't feeling 100%.
    • Watching her with grandparents, aunts, uncles... seeing how very much they love her and knowing that she already returns that love back to them.
    • Watching her try to hold things, transfer things from one hand to another, work so hard to get it to her mouth and then move it back and look at it... just to start the process all over again.
    • How she gets mad when she rolls over to her back, then wants to be back on her belly, but can't quite get there yet.
    • Her growl.
    • Her first two teeth.
    • Her giggle, though she doesn't do it often and it sometimes sounds more like a cough, I love it!
    • Her eyes.
    • How she rubs my face when I give her a bottle.
    • Watching her and Tancy together... that is everything that love is and nothing love isn't.
    • Imagining what she's thinking.
    • How she looks at her Popa.
    • How she laughs at her Nana, either one.
    • How she listens intently to her Poppy.
    • How she wanted so badly to play with Marlie, you could just see it!
    • That she truly is a good baby.
    • That she is a champ; shots, teeth, she's a pretty tough cookie.
    • That's she's a calm baby.
    • How she squeals when she's excited.
    • Watching her expressions... she's got so many already.
    • That she already wants my coffee, my drink, my food... and reaches for it.
    • Her feet.
    • Her hands.
    • Her dimply little butt!
    • That she loves lights.
    • That she loves music.
    • That she loves without limits.
    • That she is so incredibly loved by so many people.
    • That I can already tell she's going to be mean and ornery... I can't wait!
    • The way she smells.
    • How she fights sleep... even though it wears me out.
    • How hard she works to turn over, move, get to what she wants... she's one determined little girl.
    • That she reaches for the phone when we put it on speaker or hold the phone to her ear so she can hear her Popa, Nana, Poppy, Aunts, etc. and grins sooo big when she hears them talk.
    • Her innocence.

    I absolutely love my daughter, my partner, our family (both nuclear and extended), our friends. I am both perplexed and mesmerized by how different life is since she came along... and I wouldn't have it any other way. I have my struggles. There are days that are difficult. There are days that are as close to perfect as it can get. For me, the trick is to allow myself my struggles, recognize them, talk about them and then remind myself of all I have to be thankful for... there truly is so very much.

Comments (2)

  • I love this blog Jodo. It made me cry, and also reminded me that having children is truly a gift. I struggle with my mommy guilt and I know I dont give myself enough credit. Thank you for always reminding me. And from one mommy to another...your a great mother. Pat yourself on the back. Lillie is a very lucky little girl.

  • @missyimmel - Thanks Miss. I just need a place to talk about my struggles, guilt, happiness, victories... I don't know what other people go through and I don't always have a chance to talk face to face with anyone about these things. My biggest hope is that I never offend anyone with my own confessions.

    You are a great mom Miss. I know you have guilt, to me they aren't things that you should feel guilty for... but the funny thing about being a parent is how responsible you feel for absolutely everything. I can't say that I wouldn't struggle with some of the same issues if I were in your shoes. Best we can do, as mothers, is to tell each other what a great job we are doing... to share our insecurities, struggles, laughs, blessings, etc. That way we never think we are alone.

    I love you dearly. I am so thankful to call you my family Missy. If I had to make a list of all the things I am thankful for, you would be on that list! Anytime you need reminding that you are a great mom and you are doing a good job, you just hit me up and I'll be happy to remind you.

Comments are closed.

Post a Comment