The Tanc Cave! And our pups checking it out.

My Pops and Tanc bonding with cigars. Love this!

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My beautiful Mom laughing

Marlie rockin' the sun glasses!! Yeah baby!

Marlie & Nana J. She couldn't love that baby more!
Cut trees everywhere!

Our work crew. That's Heather in the green shirt in the back and Ty's friend Brandon without the shirt on. They worked their asses off!
End of the day - TI-RED! Tylor in the grey, Brandon in the back (giving Scout some love) and Tancy checking out her gloves.
Hell, I can't remember the name... it's a Lily. Haha!
Yeah, don't remember the names of these either.
Or these

These are the same

So is this

These are the flowers in the three hanging baskets you already saw.
Same flower, just purple in a hanging basket on the deck.
Mint... ah, I love mint

Lavender, another of my favorites

  The right side of the deck... NO GRASS! 

The left side of the deck, notice, grass is sparse. You can see the three hanging baskets in the background.
The center of the deck (there was a previous picture from this angle with trees across the yard). Again, you can see the three hanging baskets in the background.
The deck, view from the yard. So the hanging basket with the white flowers in it. The two tall flowers on either side of the rail we are facing are the tall purple ones, the planter in the middle is holding my mint. The blue pot on the deck in the right front corner (as you are looking at it) is the Lily. The lavender, which  you can't see, is in a tan pot on the deck in the back left corner near the door.
My Christmas Cactus - Maw-Maw gave me cuttings from her's and I have been babying it hoping it will grow well. I love my plants. I think my heart would break if this particular plant died.
My own corny picture of my belly in the mirror in our bathroom. Have had so many requests for "belly" pictures. Here ya go! 
Another belly pic. Oh, and by the way, THANK YOU to everyone who says I look like I have lost weight and look great. That is a great ego booster! (And don't tell anyone, this is me in my night gown still!!) Haha!
Poor Brady, he was admitted to the hospital for Facial Cellulitis (spelling?). From what Missy said, this was the worst of it. We are sending him bunches of love, hopefully he'll get to come home tomorrow.
This is once it started to come down after the antibiotics. He's a champ! Poor baby.
  I am thinking that he didn't want his picture taken... but he's looking much better here.
Now there's our wild man! Again, what a champ!! He's a cutie too!!  We love you Brady, feel better buddy.
And this is Bella, Missy's daughter. She lost a tooth, obviously. She's a cutie. Missy sure makes pretty babies.
Our second favorite nephew, only cause he's the second nephew... Zachy! He really racked up on the Easter candy. Love that face too. LOL. Sun must have been in his eyes?? Nah, he always makes that face for pics! We sure love the toe head anyway!
LoLo ready for prom. Thank goodness she was smiling at this point. Wow, so looking forward to a teenage girl! Haha. Nah, she's a good kid.
Marlie and Popa. She's absolutely the apple of his eye!
Tancy and Gary putting Lillie's quote up on the wall. We love Gary and he seems to LOVE some Lillie already. How wonderful that we have so many people excited about our baby!! We are incredibly fortunate.

Ok kids.... that's enough of the pics with captions. I could do this all night long. I love looking over the recent events we have captured in photographs. Wanna see more, just go look at the photos I have posted.

Love to all!

Good morning all. I hope this finds you all doing well. I haven't blogged in a few, not much exciting to report... that and Tancy's been home, so I have been enjoying my time with her.

So Monday was the last time I posted anything. We have been very excited about Ms. Lillie since we saw her. It seems like she could actually be here soon. Knowing she's already big enough, size wise, puts me at ease should she come early. I don't want her to come before its time, and honestly I just want her to be healthy. The idea of a chubby baby makes my heart flutter! Monday night we went to our last Birth & Beyond class. It was just as good as the three before. We even got to go back over the previous class that Tancy missed. I was appreciative for that since it was the "coaches" class and really wanted her to have that information. We loved the girl who gave the class, Amy, she's been at this particular hospital for 3 years, but has been labor and delivery for 13 years if I remember the numbers correctly. We would be delighted to have her as our nurse when I go into labor. We came home and practiced some of the massage techniques that they taught us in class and I worked on communicating what felt best, what didn't feel good at all, etc.

Let's see. Tuesday morning we slept in a bit. We have been doing that this week. When Tancy is off work is about the only time I get "extra" sleep. So we got up, Tancy got ready to go to physical therapy and I hung out at the house. I wish I could say I did something productive, but I didn't... I sat on the couch for a while and then I decided to soak in the tub. Now there I did do something productive!! Haha. Not really. I just soaked in the tub and tried to find ways to lay in the tub that took the pressure off my back and didn't make my belly feel so heavy. It's really the small things in life. Tancy came in and I was in the tub on my side, resting my head on the back of the tub with a wash rag under my face. That's the first time in quite a while that I couldn't feel the weight of my belly. Of course, the side view of my belly is quite a sight! Tancy thought something was wrong. I told her I was just relaxing and finding what was comfortable in our tub should I be in early labor for a while at home. (They wont admit you till you are 4 centimeters, I am preparing myself for a pretty decent wait at home.) I got out of the tub and we just hung out.
Before long it was time to get ready for our Breast feeding class at the hospital. I have looked forward to all of the classes we have taken for different reasons. The Birth & Beyond because it covers possible complications, interventions, medical treatments, risks, etc. It covers the things you do know and don't know, plus you get to see the methods of interventions, forceps, vacuum, monitors, catheters, etc. Makes them less scary in that environment than if I were seeing them for the first time in an emergent situation. I loved CPR because it gives me a confidence that I now know the basics of what to do should Lillie stop breathing or choke on something. Enough to give me time to get an ambulance here at the very least. And knowledge is a wonderful thing to have. And I loved the Breast feeding class because, once again, it arms me with knowledge about this thing that I have never done before, that can be very intimidating and that so many women struggle with. I am prepared for the struggle, but I want to know what my resources are when I am in the middle of the battle. It was a great class. Lots of information. Honestly, it could probably be broken up into two classes even. But I know where to turn if I am having alot of trouble. I know some tricks for the issues that are common to new Moms trying to breast feed. I know what NOT to do. Now if I can just remember it all. LMAO!
We left from class and went to see some friends who had just received good news about a better job. We stopped in to congratulate them both. Only one got the job, but to a couple, it means so much for both. We visited for a bit and then headed home. I think we might have watched a bit of TV and then off to sleep ourselves.

Wednesday we got up late again. I must admit, I've only had one morning off...that sucks... but I've been able to sleep in some, so I wont complain too much. We've split the coffee/puppy morning routine for the most part. Anyway, I had 2 cups of coffee just to get moving. We had worked around the house some earlier in the week, but we didn't do anything on Tuesday and I needed to get some stuff done... however, I wasn't feeling motivated at all. I finally drug my ass off the couch and got dressed. Tancy followed suit. I picked up around the house, Tancy took the trash to the dump. When she got back she went to work in the back yard. I opened the windows for some fresh air in the house. I got the laundry going and the dishes too. I made the bed and just generally picked up and put things back where they go. Tancy was trying to find a place to put the new fire pit... and before it was all said and done, we decided to leave the fire pit and make a garden in the clearing she was looking at. I worked on the carport, loading everything under there in the back of the truck to take it around back to the shed or under the house. I was sick of looking at all that crap under there. So I got it all loaded up and took it around back. Tancy unloaded most of it and in doing so we started talking about the planter boxes, hanging baskets and plant pots we had and what we would do with them. Last year they were full of plants. This year they were empty. So we set those things to the side for some plants. We talked more about the garden and decided to go to Lowe's and get some plants. And wouldn't ya know, we came back with a load of garden plants, flowers and potting soil. I started working on the plants for the deck and Tancy got to work on the garden. We were both proud and happy to be working on these projects. I love my plants. It brings me great joy to bring in new plants and to take care of them. I managed to get some mint, some lavender and even a Lily for my Lillie. Tancy was tickled shitless to have a garden since we both had figured it wasn't possible this year. Tomatoes, peppers, zucchini, squash and cucumbers. We are starting small. Since most everything will be giving us food in the next few months (which will already be busy). We wrapped up around 6:00 and just put all our stuff away, sat back and enjoyed all our hard work. We ordered pizza, both too tired to cook, and ate outside. It was so nice. The weather was cool enough to be outside and it was just really nice. To sit outside and see all that you accomplished is a great feeling. Next week we plan on working on the front flower beds. So we came inside, got baths (cause we were funky!) and caught up on some shows we had on DVR. We went to bed around midnight I guess. We were both tired, but trying to help Tancy roll back to nights.

So this morning we slept in again. I was up every hour/hour and half last night for potty runs. That's so frustrating. Especially when I have a hard time turning over to get out of bed. I try not to wake Tancy, but lately I've been very near asking her to give me a push to help me. I've been diligently drinking lots and lots of water these last days. I'd had some cramping and during the Birth & Beyond class they said if you have any cramping the very first action is water, water, water. That being even a little dehydrated can cause cramping... which can also trigger labor... which is usually stopped the second they give you a fluid bag. So I have been a very good girl and drinking my water and more water and more water. Plus I worked hard yesterday so water was very important.

I just got off the phone with Missy, at the start of the week they admitted her little boy to the Children's Hospital near them. He has cellulitis of the face. They aren't sure of its original start, but he should get to come home tomorrow. It sounds like it was quite scary for her. I can't imagine. His whole face was swollen by the time they got the IV meds in him. He's better now, ready to set the world on fire... he's been in bed for too long. She'll keep us posted on when he gets out of the hospital. Please keep them in your thoughts.

Well, we finally got my night gowns pinned. Today I need to sew them. But I'll probably go with Tancy to physical therapy first and then we'll ride around some. We've been hanging close to the house and today we probably both need a break. I need to pack our hospital bag in the next week I guess. I haven't done that yet. I don't know how early most people pack them... but I haven't been overly eager to pack ours for whatever reason. I guess I just haven't felt the need to get it done too soon. I also really need to get some food in the freezer. So much to get done it seems and although time has felt like it was moving in slow motion at some points, recently it's felt like it's flying by! 13 days and a wake-up till my Mom is here and I am absolutely beside myself I am so excited!!

Alright kids. I need to get dressed and unload the dishwasher. Before I know it we'll need to be leaving for Tancy's physical therapy session.So, with that said, I hope you all have a great day today. The weekend is upon us! Enjoy it. Tancy will be working nights... so my weekend will probably be fairly quiet, literally.

Love to all!

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So today was our doctors visit, one day prior to the start of week 35. Here's what they told us:
I only gained a pound since I was there two weeks ago. My blood pressure was 112/80, so good. The ultrasound show she's still really high, her head is at my waist if that gives you an idea. She's changed position. She was head down on my left side and feet up on my right side; she's now head down on my right side and feet up on my left. She's still face down, so that's good at least. They put her at 6 pounds 4 ounces currently and guestimate, given her growth up to this point (and the "average" growth per week here on out) that she'll be about 8 and a half pounds at 40 weeks. No way to gauge her length, she's all curled up in there. Her feet, however are 3" long!! The length for a full term baby... so who knows how long they will be when she comes out! She's got a round little belly, so she's getting plenty of nutrients and some fat little thighs too! I've attached some pics and will do my best to describe them for ya since they are sometimes hard to make out.

Her foot. Ready for flip flops! Look at the gap between that big toe and her second toe!!

This is her thigh, you can see the bones, the grayish white around it is fluffyness!

her pretty little profile. She was pouting we think. Haha.

Her nose and lips. She looks gangsta, head covered and all you can see is the bottom part of her face.

These are both of her hands. Imagine them curled, not quite into fists, knuckles together.

This is a picture of her hair, I honestly can't make it out, so good luck!

Another picture of hair... the lady doing the ultrasound said it was pretty long in places... again, I don't see it.

Her foot again. Girls got a great foundation already! 3" long.

Here she is making a fist. That's her face to the right, she's turned a bit so it looks funky.

My baby's fat little face. Look at those cheeks!

This is her ear. Right where it should be.

So, we go to the doctor once a week now. Fun stuff. They gave me a paper to keep a "kick count" for my visits from here on out. Gives them an idea of how active she is each time we go in. So, my fingers are crossed that she'll drop soon... I get out of breath very easily and feel like she's clear up in my lungs most of the time. Not to mention, turned all crooked like she is, she'd have more room if she'd just get right. She's all curled up in there right now.

My sciatic and my hand are still giving me trouble, but that's nothing new and nothing that's gonna change until it does. I've been having cramps for the last few days, so I asked the doctor about it today. He said that it's just my uterus cramping a bit. Nothing to be concerned about, par for the course. No complaints really, just starting to get anxious for her to get here. I don't want to go into labor before the shower (can't explain that, just how I feel), but anytime after that I'd be happy to go!

Last time I wrote about the pregnancy specifically, 6 weeks seemed like an eternity. Today I am looking at 5 and it doesn't seem too bad. So, that just goes to show ya how feelings (emotional and physical) change just that quickly. I do know that I'll be happy not to have to pee every 10 minutes, to be able to sleep on my stomach again, and to be able to poop normally again! TMI I am sure, but oh well, that's just the way my blog is.

Alright, I am going to relax a bit before time to leave for our last Birth & Beyond class tonight. Tomorrow we have PT for Tancy and then our Breast feeding class at the hospital tomorrow night. I am very much looking forward to the Breast feeding class and hopeful that we'll get lots of good tips.

Later kids! Love to all!

Hello all. It is just after noon here and we've been busy this morning! I sure hope this finds you doing well and less productive than us! Haha.

Let's see, I think I posted last on Wednesday... I made Tancy some baked chicken with Allegro and onions, I also opened a can (that's right, you read that right) of spinach. The chicken was yummy if I do say so myself. I am not a fan of the spinach, but there's this one brand that comes all seasoned and such and Tancy really likes it. Anyway, she was up fairly early, I guess around 1:00 or so. She ate and we got caught up on the events since we had a chance to talk last. Before long it was time for her to start getting ready and head out for work.
After she left for work I bummed around the house. Did some dishes and some laundry, nothing terribly exciting. I posted a blog for you all about the important women in my life. Before I knew it, it was 10:00 and I was still in the living room, uncommon for me on a night that she's at work, I typically retire to the bedroom early if I am home. So I headed to the back and got a bath and then settled in to bed for the night. Fairly uneventful and definitely nothing exciting!

Thursday morning was the usual. Let the dogs out, make coffee, feed the dogs, fix my cup of coffee and try to be quiet so Tancy can sleep. I decided to fry some potatoes with onions and do a breakfast burrito type thing. So I started getting all that going. Before long Tancy was up and I made her a cup of coffee. We ate till we were full and then both got baths. We got fairly caught up, as we do between her waking and heading off to work, while we got ready. She had work, I had my Infant CPR class. I was looking forward to it. Before hand I was going to stop by a friends house to make plans for Friday night. So I left the house when Tancy left.
I didn't stay long at the friends house, she was mowing grass and I didn't want to keep her from it. I got to the CPR class, at the hospital, a bit early, but not too bad. It was a good class. The instructor was humorous and informative at the same time. She gave us all the information we needed without scaring us worse than we were before we got there. I was pleased that I decided to take the class. It was over around 9:00, right on schedule, and I got a shake at Cookout! From there I came directly home. I piddled around in the house, took care of the clothes that I hadn't finished earlier and got in my jammies and ready for bed. For the first night since Tancy went back to night shift, and possibly since she's been on nights period, definitely for the first time in the third trimester, I slept well. I woke up twice, that was it! I was asleep by midnight, which sounds late, but given how late I have been up... and what all I got done before going to bed (after getting home at about 10:00) it really isn't that late. And I slept so well. I think I slept till about 8:30. So a full nights sleep. Yay me!

Friday morning I got up with the puppies. As soon as my feet hit the floor I was in pain. First thing I noticed what the tightness and tenderness in my belly low. I had to brace myself on the bed and catch my breath. This woke Tancy up "what's wrong?!". I told her nothing that my belly was just sore, round ligament pain I assumed. Once I caught my breath I went through the usual routine. I had to get Tancy up for around 11:00 and I really wanted to get some things done in the house before I got her up... but that didn't happen. I hadn't even gotten the water and the grounds in the coffee pot when my sciatic jumped up and bitch slapped me. My back was burning from the bottom of my right butt cheek, clear up my right side. Oh my, this is not good. I got my cup of coffee and parked it on the couch, trying to find a comfortable position... very elusive. And before long my lower back started to hurt. Like the way your lower back hurts when you are on your period, not like it hurts when you have pulled something. It seems like it was just a minute before it was time to wake Tancy up. I had talked to Mom on the phone, her and Dad were having a great time and that made me soo very happy. The both needed a break!
Anyway, I headed in to get Tancy up and, poor thing, it took her a bit to rouse. The first day off of nights is always hard on her. I came back in the kitchen and made her a cup of coffee, before long she was in here sipping on it. I forget all the details of the morning but she got a bath and I got a shower and we were ready just in time to head out for her physical therapy.
We got half way there and I was really wishing I had stayed home, I hurt so badly. I was trying not to limp or crip around, but man, it was really tough. Therapy went well, I got to sit, so it wasn't too bad but I was sure ready to be home. It was after 2:00 when we got back home and we grabbed a quick bite... ok, I'll admit it Tancy made me a sandwich, brought me a drink and got me a Tylox to take. She's good to me. Before long it was time to head out, we had to stop by the bank on our way to dinner with Heather. The Tylox had taken the edge off (now ya'll know how bad I must have been hurting to take that) but the pain was far from gone. We stopped by to see the "fish guy" for a bit cause we were too early to go to Heather's. I couldn't take the standing, so before long we left. We rode around Belmont a bit, just killing time, I was glad to be sitting again.
By the time we got to Heather's it had drastically reduced from an 8 to a 3. We left and went to this hole in the wall greek/italian restaraunt. It was yummy. Really, it hit the spot. We hung out there for a while, just cuttin' up and laughing. Then we headed back to the house. We sat out on their back porch till dark. It was so nice out. This makes Tancy really, really, really want to cover our back deck. We had a great visit. Lots of laughs. I hope Heather enjoyed the company as much as we did. We were a fairly boring group, dinner and then the back porch, lol... but I just couldn't do much else.
We headed home around 9:00 and were both exhausted. We changed into jammers and crawled into bed. Tancy had been snoozing off and on during the drive home. We were up about 20 minutes once we got in bed. Tancy started to drift off to sleep, but Lillie was kicking and moving so much I was having trouble, that and my sinuses were draining and making that water dripping noise that makes me insane! Finally though I did get to sleep. I woke up around midnight to go to the bathroom. I made so much racket getting up and getting back in bed that I woke Tancy up. She thought something was wrong, nothing, just takes alot of work and is usually an uncomfortable feat to get out and back in bed and find a comfy position to fall back to sleep. Sorry honey. It certainly wasn't a full, pleasant or sound nights sleep... but it was sleep.

We were both up at 7:20, dogs cutting up and carrying on. Ugh! Tancy went through the paces this morning, coffee, dogs, fed, etc. I had a whole cup of coffee and could not keep my eyes open, so by 8:00 I went back to bed. I fell asleep fairly quickly, though lightly at first because the dogs wouldn't settle down, then because Tancy came in to get dressed to go cut the grass. I was SOUND asleep when the mower passed our bedroom window and the dogs barked so loud I thought I'd shit the bed!! This made me grumpy. A warning would have been nice. I layed there till my heart settled back down into my chest, beating at a normal rate, and back in its proper location. I got up and let the puppies out and sat on the couch and tried not to be an asshole. Tancy was inside in just a minute or two, asking if I was crabby, I nodded yes and she didn't ask anything more. She headed out to do the trim work with the push mower.
Before long I got up and got dressed myself. I started cleaning the bathrooms. Then I moved on to the kitchen. By now Tancy was inside and she started on the floors. I was thankful for the help and to be getting less crabby. She finished the floor, I finished the kitchen. She took a break, I wiped down the mirrors, the trash can in the kitchen and got the laundry going. She caulked the tub in our bathroom and we have both decided to take a break.

Now Heather and Adreanne are here. I need to move the clothes around and then visit with them some. So I'll close this out for now. I hope you all have a great day today. The weather is gorgeous here. I hope it lasts all day!!

Love to all!

I've already caught you up from the last blog post. This is just a rambling blog because I am feeling emotional and need an outlet. That's your warning... if you read from here, you can't complain to me. LOL!

It has got to be the hormones, nearing the end of my pregnancy, but I am feeling fairly emotional. In a good way, not depressed; happy, fortunate, lucky, full, loved, appreciative, hopeful, excited. Those are just a few that I can find the words for.

I have been thinking about those coming in for the baby shower. My Mom, Tancy's Mom, Aunt Jan (who in reality has been like a Mom to me), Jessi, Larisa, Missy, Jeanette. Just going through the list makes my heart feel so full that I can't find the words to explain it to you... and what makes my heart feel more full is that Lillie is kicking as I write this. Obviously there are other women who are important to me that I wish could make it in; my sister Casie and her daughter Marlie obviously are at the top of the list, my Maw-Maw... I think I would cry... I could cry just thinking about her being here, my cousin Daniele who was like a sister in many ways. These are just to name a few, honestly. I have been so fortunate to have so many wonderful women in my life. So many strong women that have influenced me in many ways, some I am aware of, some I am not. I don't even know how aware they all are of their impact on my life. I hope, if nothing else, they know how very much I love them.

My one and only regret is that I don't have enough room for them all to stay with us while they are here. I know that sounds ridiculous... but I'd love nothing more than to have them all right here while they are here. Wake up and have coffee... sit up late and talk... But we don't, so we'll just have to spend as much time as we can together.

I know how fortunate I am to have the family I have. I don't ever take that for granted... even when we don't see eye to eye. And how many people have a Mom that they love and adore like I love and adore my Mom. Let alone a Mother-In-Law that they truly love and appreciate (know you all know the horror stories that people tell about their Mother-In-Law). I also have my Jan-E-Poo, there are no words for her! That's three strong, beautiful, loving and unique women that I have in my life as an adult... that's not even mentioning the women who were there during my child hood. My great grandmother, Lillie Mae, Wow! Now those are some amazing stories! My grandmother, Gilda, who loves in her own unique and wonderful way. There's my sister who amazes me constantly. There are numerous Aunts and cousins. And in the last 5 years I have added to those numbers of amazing women exponentially. The top of that list would absolutely have to be Tancy.

I am so very fortunate to have her as my partner and my best friend. She's so level headed... I know alot of people see her as a cut up and goof. Don't get me wrong, she's both of those and then some!! But if there's a crisis, she's truly the one I want by my side... she's a tremendous support. She's a great barometer of when to worry, when to act, when to sit still and when to laugh (well, sometimes she's the first to laugh... lol). I look forward to raising our children together. She sacrifices for us, for me, for our family. I am forever grateful to her for what she has given me, for how much she loves me and the limitlessness of what she'll do for us. I never expected to have what I have today. I knew that I would have kids, that wasn't something I was willing to give up, even if I had to do it on my own (before I met Tancy obviously). But truly, I never thought I would be with someone who loved me so much, so unconditionally. Who would support me through everything. Who would be able to call me on my bullshit and that I would be able to hear. Who would provide for a family, allowing me my dream of staying home and raising our children (something I have dreamed of for as far back as I can remember). Who appreciates all that I bring to the table. I could go on and on. And you can't fuss because I warned you at the start of this. Tancy is really someone I can give all that I have to give to and she'll never take that for granted or take advantage of it. She respects me and we both feel that we've met our match. How wonderful!

I've already talked about her Mom, whom I love very much. She also loves me like another of her children which means the world to me. She's really great and I can be so thankful that she already loves Lillie, her grand daughter. When some might not feel so affectionate since she's not "blood" it is easy to be aware of what that means. That comment seems out of place here I am sure. It goes back to a conversation that Tancy and I had just a day or two ago. I know without a shadow of a doubt that Lillie will be loved the same as the grandchildren that she shares genetics with, she's just that way. There's also my sisters-in-law. That makes me chuckle, thinking about Mandy and Jessi. How different they are! Not only from Tancy but from each other. Those Dean girls! I love them both very much and for very different reasons. LOL. But I guess that applies to everyone I love. And once again, they love Lillie already and are just as excited for her to get here as they would be if one of them was having a baby. They love me like I am their sister and I never expected that.

There are cousins. I'll name one specifically, Missy. Wow. She's been such a gift to me. She loves me like family, must be a Fisher trait. She's been there when I needed to talk. She calls to check on me. She has been nothing but supportive of me & Tancy since day one. She's a wonderful woman who has had her own struggles and obstacles and has worked so very hard to overcome and do better for herself and her children. She's another wonderful example, in Tancy's family, of a truly strong and independent woman.

Then there's Jeanette, Tancy's BFF from her childhood. I felt connected to her fairly quickly and she welcomed me as part of the group when I first met her (though it was at my house, it was a reunion of sorts for their crew and they ushered me right in). She's coming with her daughter, leaving her 4 month old with Dad just to share in our celebration. How wonderful is that?! I talk to her on the phone and by email and it's never like I am her friends partner, she talks to me like we are friends. She always inquires as to how I am doing and how the pregnancy has been. I think she's just as excited for us as our families. And I know she's another person in my safety net that I can call when I need advice or information or to tell me its ok. I love her dearly.

I am only naming women here... that's certainly not because there are no great men in my life. It's only because I have been thinking about having so many of these women here at the end of this month and I want to pay tribute to them and all that they give. For who ever has read this entire post, thank you. If you aren't one of these women, or even if you are, take the time to reflect on the important and influential women in your life. It is a real blessing (and ya'll know I don't throw that word around).

I send out all my love and appreciation to each woman I have named here... and to those whom I have not named as well. I thank you all for contributing to my life. I love you all.

Good morning all. I hope this finds everyone healthy & happy. I skipped yesterday but I don't have alot to talk about still. So I'll catch you up and see where that takes us.

Monday night was brutal. It was 3:00 before I even thought about sleep, though I got in bed fairly early... I worked on downloading music on the iPod for quite some time and then blogging, catching up and my weekly pregnancy post (you already know this). Sometime after 3:00 I began to doze. I think that is really all I did all night... I would fall asleep and within 30 or 45 minutes I would be awake again. I would either have to make a bathroom trip or find a new position in the bed. Then I'd be awake for 30 minutes before I could sleep again... this was the pattern. Absolutely miserable. At 10:00 I got out of bed, the dogs were cutting up. Couldn't tell ya why, they had been out to potty when Tancy got home... but they, lately, have decided that it's their call when we get up.
It's very frustrating for me, especially since Tancy is trying to sleep when they start to cut up. What are ya gonna do?! I don't know why that started and I don't know how to stop it. However, with diligence, they are getting better about sitting at the door until you tell them to come in and sitting at their food bowls until you tell them ok. They also aren't trying to eat each others food!! They have also gotten better about not getting on you, if you tell them no... if you allow it, well, that's on you. Haha! They are so very well behaved during the days with me and Tancy at home. We still have alot of work to do with them in the yard though. That's just something I haven't taken on. Since I am home with them the most, they do seem to learn the most from me.

So I got up yesterday morning crabby as hell. I let them out, fed them and then had a bowl of cereal. I wasn't feeling the coffee. Lately I have been waking up with my stomach burning. Not heart burn, more like my hernia or indigestion or something I can't describe. It's a raw feeling in my stomach and it sucks. So I have been trying to limit my caffeine even more and listening to what my body is telling me isn't a good thing to put in it. Coffee was that thing yesterday morning. I talked to Jeanette (Tancy's buddy from home, they essentially grew up together) on the phone for quite a while. It was a great conversation. Jeanette is so easy to talk to... and she's got the personality that she could tell you anything and you would listen to it. There's no judgement or criticism, no competition. I don't know if that makes sense to anyone, if you've met her then you know she's just a genuine person. Now, I know, to have been Tancy's friend growing up she's got to have some mischief in there too... she's not without humor or a little bit of badness... lol. Anyway! She wanted some information on the shower so she could plan coming in or not. Turns out she will be able to come. She will bring her daughter, Luca, with her. We are very excited to meet Luca. She will be leaving her son (4 months) at home with Dad. We would love to meet him too, but two kids by yourself on a flying trip is a bit much. So we will just have to plan a trip to see them. It just means so much that she will be able to make it.

I got off the phone with her, sent out my morning email (at noon) and then decided to get dressed. I was going to go get dog food and a couple of odds and ends but decided that Tancy would be awake before I would get back. So I picked up around the house and watched TV. Tancy was up too early, had a terrible head ache. So took some medicine and I fixed her cup of coffee (had a fresh pot ready to brew for her since I didn't make coffee that morning). We really just enjoyed each others company. We wrote in our Mother's Day cards and got that ready to go out so they get there in time. We both love and miss our Moms right now. I didn't get all sappy (my typical) in Mom's card. I will see her in a bit and I'll be more than sappy enough then!! Haha. Tancy's head was really bothering her. I feel so bad for her, nights always seems to bring on a head ache for her. I made her some mac-n-cheese, per her request for a pre work snack. They were having a Cinco De Mayo dinner at work, so she just needed a scooby snack before leaving. I was meeting some friends for dinner. They were gracious enough to include me in their dinner plans which I appreciated so very much. So we both got our stuff together and when Tancy left for work I left to get dog food and meet up with the girls.

I went to pick up dog food first. The day had been kinda gloomy all day, but when I got into town the rain really let loose. And you would know that it was slack when I was in the car and as soon as it was time for me to get out of the car it came a gully washer! So I got the dog food and some gnaw-gnaw's. About the end of the month they are going to need some gnaw-gnaw's to help them occupy themselves. Between food and treats I spent nearly $100!! All that shit is expensive.
I left from there to go to the restaraunt. It was coming down in buckets and I was dreading having to get out in the rain again. By the time I got there, and found a parking space, it had slacked again. Thankfully. The restaraunt was packed, go figure! LOL. Cinco De Mayo and a mexican restaraunt would be full?! They were playing music and to my surprise, I liked it! We had to wait a while, luckily I got there ahead of the girls and went ahead and put our names on the list for a table. We ended up out of the way, so we could actually talk and hear each other. We also weren't in the middle of the room, which I was really worried about. So we were seated and just had a great dinner and great conversation. It was really nice to have that time and, agian, to be included in their dinner. I am sure their plans started out as dinner for the two of them. We laughed and cut up, it was just what I needed after a shitty night of sleep and a gloomy day. Thanks ladies!

I left the restaraunt and went to Wal-Mart. I wanted to see if they had anything like the little massage ball that was used for demonstration at the Birth & Beyond class. Since I hope to put off the epidural for a while, I am going to have to have some "tricks" (as they say in class) to help me through the beginning stages of labor. Massage is one of those tricks. And since Tancy's hands typically hurt her too badly to massage my back and/or shoulders manually I am looking for some assistance to help her. I found a lotion that I really like. Johnson and Johnson no less. It feels so silky and smooth. I bought a pump for the house and a tube for the hospital. It feels great! I also found a toiletry bag. It isn't that I don't have enough bags... but I wanted something with real compartments so that bottles stay upright or segregated from our tooth brushes. I would love to have the old hard side/top toiletry case like women used to carry, with the elastic around the sides for bottles and such and the liner in the top. But I haven't been able to find them and I am sure that if/when I did it would cost more than I want to spend right now. The toiletry bag that I ended up with cost less than $10.00. I also picked up some of the travel shampoo, tooth paste, deoderant, etc. So I will be able to pack the toiletry bag before too long. I am thinking I will wait till mid May to pack our clothes. The toiletry bag will be a work in progress since it will be the "Coaches tool bag" as well... lol. Again, part of the tricks we will use for the early part of labor. And just managing any discomfort that pain meds don't cover. I also needed salt and bleach... so I covered all the bases!

I got home, brought in my bags, left the heavy stuff for Tancy. I let the puppies out and then we got ready to settle in for the night. I got a bath using the Johnson & Johnson night time baby wash that I got. I have been using some of the Johnson & Johnson bath stuff to see what I like. And I wanted to see if the night time helped me to rest some. Sounds silly maybe... It makes sense in my head. So I got my bath and I did feel sleepy after (who knows if it was the bath stuff or having not slept the night before). I got comfy in bed and about the time I got fully settled the bottom fell slap out! I mean thunder, lightning, heavy winds and terrible rain! The puppies were up in arms and I was getting a little nervous myself. I was worried about the lights going out and having to take care of the fish tank and what else?? So I got my little flashlight at the ready and watched the TV search for a satellite signal. This went on for quite some time. So I played on my cell phone while the TV was out. The weather was just too loud to sleep at that point. I guess it was around 11:00 before it calmed down outside. By this time I had a bowl of strawberries. I've been trying not to eat too much at night, but the later I am up, the harder that is to do. Anyway, I guess I was probably asleep sometime around midnight.

I was still up several times in the night, but not as bad as the night before. Thankfully. It is strange how numbness can wake you up. The nights can be so long, at this point, I don't know if it is affected by Tancy being on nights or not. So the pups started their carrying on this morning at 9:45. Again I was aggravated. Especially since I know they don't have to potty and Tancy is trying to sleep. I wasn't ready to get up yet either... I was sleeping really well at that point. I try to ignore them, thinking they will settle back down (cause I know they are going to go back to sleep once they eat) but Scout is perched on Tancy's side of the bed "talking". I cuss and get up. These are the times when I wish there was some way to put them in time out or explain to them why that isn't ok. But, alas, there's no way to make this happen, so I turn into a crab ass and run the morning routine anyway.

Today I have nothing going on. I've already checked my emails and am about to wrap up this blog. Then I need to take something out for dinner for Tancy. After that I pretty much just wait for her to get up. Sometimes that's hard to do. With that said, I am going to draw this to an end. I hope that you all have a great day!

Love to all!

Your pregnancy: 34 weeks

How your baby's growing:

Your baby now weighs about 4 3/4 pounds (like your average cantaloupe)
and is almost 18 inches long. Her fat layers — which will help regulate
her body temperature once she's born — are filling her out, making her
rounder. Her skin is also smoother than ever. Her central nervous
system is maturing and her lungs are continuing to mature as well. If
you've been nervous about preterm labor,
you'll be happy to know that babies born between 34 and 37 weeks who
have no other health problems generally do fine. They may need a short
stay in the neonatal nursery and may have a few short-term health
issues, but in the long run, they usually do as well as full-term
babies.

See what your baby looks like this week.

Note:
Every baby develops a little differently — even in the womb. Our
information is designed to give you a general idea of your baby's
development.

How your life's changing:

By this week, fatigue
has probably set in again, though maybe not with the same coma-like
intensity of your first trimester. Your tiredness is perfectly
understandable, given the physical strain you're under and the restless
nights of frequent pee breaks and tossing and turning, while trying to
get comfortable. Now's the time to slow down and save up your energy
for labor day (and beyond). If you've been sitting or lying down for a
long time, don't jump up too quickly. Blood can pool in your feet and
legs, causing a temporary drop in your blood pressure when you get up
that can make you feel dizzy.

If you notice itchy red bumps or welts
on your belly and possibly your thighs and buttocks as well, you may
have a condition called pruritic urticarial papules and plaques of
pregnancy (PUPPP for short). Up to one percent of pregnant women
develop PUPPP, which is harmless but can be quite uncomfortable. See
your practitioner so she can make sure it's not a more serious problem,
provide treatment to make you more comfortable, and refer you to a
dermatologist if necessary. Also be sure to call her if you feel
intense itchiness all over your body, even if you don't have a rash. It
could signal a liver problem.

Well, I don't have much to add to the typical 34 week report. I am tired, alot. I have been trying to give in and take a nap if I feel like I need it. My stamina is certainly decreased. I still want to do things around the house, and I still do... but not with the same vigor as I was doing it just a few weeks ago. Sleep comes in shorter time frames now between having to pee all night long and hurting.

My sciatic is really a pain, literally. My hands, specifically my right, go numb without any warning at all and hurt as well... though the "hurt" is less frequent than the numbness. I have been feeling nauseous for some reason lately and my heart burn is absolutely ridiculous! I think it is due to the change in my prenatal vitamins, I have noticed a drastic change since I made the switch. I eat ant-acids like they are going out of style! I have them stashed all over the house!

I found some gowns that I really like. I need to make a few alterations in them, but outside of that I am really pleased. I have been wearing them already and they are very comfortable. After the alterations are done I will pack two in my hospital bag. I figure I'll get that packed in the next couple of weeks. No real rush. I haven't had any braxton hicks for a while. She's still carrying high. That in itself causes issues with heart burn, my hernia and feeling incredibly short of breath. Oh and bending over is a new challenge. Picking something up off the floor is a sight to behold! Truly a treat for the eyes and ears!! And turning over in bed is entertaining. I am not sure what I am going to do when Tancy's on nights for the next round... to try to get up to pee takes alot of work. Haha! Maybe there wont be another round of nights before Lillie comes... that is 6 - 7 weeks away. A girl can hope!

I think that's all kids. We go back to the doctor next Monday, we'll have an ultrasound and should have a pretty good idea about how big she is at this point (I will be 35 weeks at that point). And then I'll be going in every Monday from then till I deliver. So, we are getting close!! Yay!

Hello all. It is currently 11:51 PM... by the time I finish this post it will be Tuesday morning, thus the Title. Let me catch you up from the last post.

Sunday everyone got here right around lunch time. Most everyone got a quick snack before the work started. Heather & Sonia were the first to get here, they arrived while I was at Wal-Mart getting drinks to ice down, paper plates and cups to use instead of dishes. We visited with them for a bit before Tylor and Brandon arrived. They got a quick bite of pasta salad and then they all headed outside to get to work.

There were chain saws going in all directions. They did cut down a few more trees before it was all said and done. The yard looks much different than it did before they started. They got to work on cutting the trees into logs and cutting off the tree limbs. Some worked on sawing everything up, some worked on stacking wood and some worked on packing the limbs across the fence. Amy arrived before too long, bringing her chain saw and visiting with me & Sonia on the deck. Mandy got here somewhere between 2 & 3, visited for a bit and then worked a bit. Before long the crew was hungry and Amy threw the hot dogs and brats on the grill for me. Everyone stopped long enough to eat and rest a bit. Then it was back to work. Mandy had too much to eat, so she hung out with us on the deck. That meant Tancy, Heather, Tylor & Brandon finished up. I am telling you those four worked their asses off. By the time they were done the yard was clear, the wood was stacked and it was as picked up as it is going to get for a while (enough for me to be able to cut the grass). I was impressed, they worked hard and got ALOT done. We couldn't be more appreciative of all the help. I felt bad for sitting on my ass... but what else could I do?

Ty and Brandon were the first to leave. The girls stayed and visited for a bit. Heather & Sonia and Amy all headed out at once. Mandy stayed for just a bit and then she was on her way too. We were both tired. My sciatic was burning terribly. What kind of bullshit is that?! Sit and do nothing so that I don't hurt and hurt anyway!! Makes no sense to me, if I had known that I would have worked, at least then there's a reason. So we headed to the back, I started a hot bath for Tancy and put a shit load of epsom salt in her bath to try to help with bruising and soreness. I knew she would pay for all the labor in the days coming. After her bath we watched TV in the livingroom in an effort to help her stay awake... in an hour or so I headed to the back to get my shower, I was itchy from all the dust and pollen that had been stirring around with all the work. Then I headed back into the livingroom with Tanc. I managed to stay awake till right at 11:00. Tancy headed to bed shortly behind me... she was just too worn out. I couldn't blame her at all. I don't think our heads hit the pillows before we were both asleep.

Neither of us slept all that well. I was up before 8:00 and I only made it as late as I did because I just refused to get out of bed. I think Tancy was up by 9:00 - 10:00. I headed out not long after she got up to cut the grass in the back yard. She had to put the riding mower back in the shed because I had a hard time getting it back inside... oh well. We sat outside for just a bit and enjoyed the sunshine... then we headed in for a nap. I think we slept about an hour/hour and a half. It wasn't much, but it was better than nothing for the first night back on shift. After our nap we just lounged around the house... snacked a bit and caught up on DVR shows. I enjoy spending time with her. I guess it was about 3:00 we both headed to the back for baths and to get ready for our nights. She got ready for work and I needed to get cleaned up and dressed for my Birth & Beyond class. By 5:15 we were both out the door, headed our seperate ways.

I didn't have time to get everything done before class that I wanted to. So tomorrow I will have to run out and get dog food before Tancy gets up. Fun! I was hoping to get that done this evening and then just piddle around the house tomorrow. Oh well. I took back some pajamas to Wal-Mart and then headed to meet Mandy for a quick bite before class started. We barely had the time. We left there just in time to get to the class before it started. The class went well. It was the "coaches" class, so I really wish Tancy would have been able to be there, I think that would have been more beneficial for us, but at least I was there and I can tell her what she needs to know from it... which she probably knows most of it already. LOL. Class ended at 9:30 almost on the button and everyone cleared out. I thanked Mandy and we both headed home.

I got home, downloaded the music Tancy's been working on to my iPod, cleaned up the music that was already on there and removed duplicates (and Christmas music). So here I am. It's already 12:08... how can that be?! I haven't even posted that much at this point. Hmm. So I gues tomorrow I'll have to go get dog food and then come home and get the house work done that needs to be taken care of. There isn't that much honestly, but there's always something to be done.

I've started the count down to when everyone will be here for the shower. 22 days (as of 9 minutes ago) and counting! I can't wait. I don't think I have anything on my agenda for Wednesday, but Thursday is my Infant CPR class. I am looking forward to that. I have wanted to take a CPR class for I don't know how long now... and I know that being at home with the little one, I will feel better knowing how to respond should she stop breathing or choke on something. I'd rather know it and never need it than to need it and not know what to do.

This weekend we don't have any plans. I think Saturday Heather is going to come by and hang out for a while. Other than that, we'll probably just take it easy. I'd like to just keep it quiet. We've got to send our Mother's Day cards this week. We got them during the week last week, I just need to address them, stamp them and send them out. I'll probably try to do that tomorrow. I honestly don't have much else. I have terrible heart burn... so I think I am going to sign off on this post and go get some milk... some ant-acids... and settle in for the night.

Love to all!

Good morning all. I hope this finds you all doing well. The last day of the weekend, so I am hoping it is whatever you need it to be.

Yesterday was a good day, but I battled my damn sciatic all day. No biggie, I have come to expect it and that means, unfortunately, I have to focus more on it than I want. I started cooking early so that I could break up the times when I needed to be on my feet. I got a shower later in the afternoon and even though I was standing it didn't hurt at the time. After dinner I sat on the yoga ball AND iced my back... got a bit of relief, just hated having to do that with company here. Before it was all said and done, it was bed that I needed the most.

To go back and give you more about the day, I think you got the mornings events already. Around 2:30 or so I got a shower. It felt so good. I am clueless as to how I can stand in the shower and my sciatic doesn't hurt, but it doesn't. I got out, got dressed, Tancy had brought the laundry in that I had put on earlier, so I folded them and put them away. It took quite a bit of work to get on the bed, lots of grunting involved. I learned that I am unable to sit indian style on my bed in my clothes (not pajamas). Tancy heard the commotion and asked what was wrong... Nothing! So I got the clothes done and then headed into the living room to put my shoes on. I asked Tancy to take a profile pic so we could post it on facebook for an update for everyone. I unloaded the dishwasher and put the dishes away... reloaded the few items left. Then it was time for my picture. I felt out of breath and sweaty... typical for after a shower, etc., doesn't exactly make ya feel clean! Haha.

So she took my picture standing in the kitchen. My belly looks huge. Otherwise though, I think everything else is about the same. My hair is certainly longer than when I first got pregnant. But physically (at least what you can see with me clothed) nothing other than my belly has changed. My boobs are bigger, but by comparison to my belly, I don't even think they look big. Once she took my picture I parked it on the couch. It was already past 3:00 and I swear, if I had thought I actually had time for a nap, I would have laid down. But I was pretty sure I wouldn't have the time, so I didn't.

However, 5:35 I got a text that they were no their way (turns out I had time for a short nap, oh well). I put the lasagna in the oven and we continued to listen to music. Tancy had been working all day putting music on her iPod, which she recently, accidentally, wiped clean of all music. So we listened to some of her stuff and just hung out. Me on my yoga ball, her on the couch.

A little after 6:00 they got here. They haven't been here in forever, so Jenn checked out the pantry, Tancy and Tab caught up. I was working on finishing up getting dinner ready. They went to look at Lillie's room... and by the time they were finishing up in there the garlic bread was ready and it was time to eat. Yay! We sat down to dinner at the table and enjoyed some good conversation and food. We stayed at the table for a while, just talking and laughing. But, finally, I couldn't sit in the chair any longer and moved back to my yoga ball in the living room. I stayed there a while and we all visited, laughing, talking, catching up. I decided ice was the the best thing for me next and Tancy got me set up... soon they wanted to see the "Tanc Cave" and they headed out to the back yard. I stayed parked on the couch, letting the ice do its thang. We've made alot of changes since they were here last. They made their way back in, I had turned the music off and had tuned the TV to something mindless, which we were immediately commenting on. It was funny. It was a good visit. I have missed spending time with them. I guess it was a little after 10:00 when they left to head home. I was sad to see them go.

Not too long after they left I had on my jammers. Sigh of relief. Something about having on my night gown that makes things just a bit more comfortable. Nothing restrictive, no elastic, no bands, just comfort. We watched TV for a while and chatted between ourselves. I've had the most horrific heart burn since they switched my prenatal vitamins... I don't have any rolaids soft chews (need to go get some today) and the others don't do much for relieving it. I had my glass of milk and a couple of cookies... mostly wanted the milk. By 11:30 or midnight I just needed to be in the bed. I hurt, I was uncomfortable and I was tired. Tancy was going to stay up a while longer so I told her good night and took the puppies with me to bed. I found a comfortable spot, across the bed naturally, and tried to stay awake a while to take advantage of the spot. I knew I would have to move when Tancy came to bed since there was no room for her unless she slept at the foot of the bed. I stayed awake till about 12:30, very carefully moved to my side of the bed and passed out.

I woke up at 1:00 with a full bladder, checked on Tancy and went back to bed. I woke up at 4:00 to a full bladder and an empty bed. I made my stop first, then checked on Tancy. She was still up, watching Bill Maher. I sent the puppies out to her so they could potty... hoping to buy some time this morning. It wasn't too much longer she came to bed. I asked what time she wanted to get up, we've got people coming over today to work in the yard on the trees we cut down. She doesn't figure she'll sleep late, but I'll get her up around 11:00 - 12:00 depending on who is or isn't here at the time. I woke up again at 7:30 with horrific heart burn but managed to talk myself into going back to sleep after propping up a bit to ease the burn in my throat. At 8:30 though I just couldn't do it any longer. I got up and brought the puppies in the living room with me. Went through the normal routine, coffee, puppies breakfast, etc.

I am not sure what time anyone will get here today. I know Amy worked till 4:00, so I would guess that it'll be after noon when she gets here. Mandy has errands, etc., so I figure 2:00 - 3:00 before she gets here. Tylor and his buddies probably wont even be awake before 11:00 so I'll look for them sometime after noon as well. That should give her some time to sleep in. She did really well staying up till 4:00 so I hope she sleeps well and can manage another late night tonight. I think being awake tonight will be hard since she'll have worked so hard in the yard today.

Yesterday she made a big batch of pasta salad (I'm afraid I wont be eating any... heartburn is just too bad to take that chance) for today. We have hot dogs and brats for the grill. Mandy is bringing buns. Heather/Sonia and Amy are bringing chips. I told Ty if they want beer to bring it. I can't afford to buy it for those boys. So we should be good to go. Here in a bit I need to get dressed and go get some soft chews. I don't think I can manage another day with the acid in my throat like it has been for the last 2 or 3 days now. Other than that, I am not sure what I will get into today. I wont be able to work in the yard.... and the house work is basically done... so I suppose I'll be making sure everyone has water or whatever they need while they are working in the yard.

I am counting down the days till everyone is here for the shower. I can't wait. Honestly, I can't tell you all how excited I am to have everyone here... some of the people I love the absolute most will be here.... possibly even all at the house at one point and that's just a tremendous amount of love in one place. Not to mention that my Mom hasn't seen Lillie's room at all, that will be wonderful... neither has Tancy's Mom. I can't wait for them to see it. Aunt Jan has never been to our house, so that is a real treat as well, plus she's going to put her personal touch on the wall. Larisa is going to be here, which I just love. Missy will be too, those two are right there together with people we just love in our families that we never seem to get enough time with. Jessi will be here and she's not seen the room either, and she'll have Zach with her... we miss the little man. Jeanette may make it, that would be nice, but we know its highly possible that she wont make it. She has two little ones at home and it would be difficult to leave Miles who is only a few months old (she's breast feeding). So, we just want her to do what she needs to do there. We know she loves us. I wish Casie could make it, but I know she can't. There are others we wish could make it, but we know they send their love. I am just looking forward to having so many wonderful women to spend time with... to have see our little one's room... to have them contribute if they so choose... to just be here in our space. My heart feels full just thinking about it now.

Plus I will only have about 16 days from the day of the shower till my due date! So that time should go quickly, if she doesn't decide to come early. I'll be washing clothes and putting things away to get ready for her between the day of the shower and her arrival. I think everyone is going home the day after the shower, so that will be highly emotional for me. But I know they will all make their way back here once Lillie is born, some obviously sooner than others... but they will all make it back to see her.

I think that's all I got for this morning. I could ramble on more, but no one really wants that. LOL. I am sure I'll have bunches
more tomorrow night after I get back from my class at the hospital.
Mandy is going with me since Tancy will be at work. I hope that you all have a great day today. I am sending out some good energy to my friend Jennifer whose Paw-Paw passed away. They are planting a tree for him today and I am sure the day will be filled with love, sorrow, happiness and pain. If you can muster it, send some out to them for me. We all know that you can never get enough of the good stuff coming your way.... and you can't ever give so much that you don't have any left... because it always comes back around.
Have a great day.

Love to all!