February 8, 2009

  • Sunday morning

    Good morning all. I hope this finds you all doing very well. No doubt trying to squeeze the last little bit of life out of the weekend.

    Tancy didn't get off work till 7:00 last night. She drug in exhausted. She didn't get to eat till later, she called her Mom to check in and well, that isn't usually a quick conversation. They hadn't talked in a while though, so I think they both needed it. Her being on the phone when she hit the door and for some time after changed our routine, hey baby (kiss), how was your day? Then the exchange that comes after that. I enjoy the start of those conversations so much. It's just our chance to reconnect after a long day. I swear we hadn't really had any time together when it was time for bed. This threw me off a bit. That lead to a small panic attack, which only made me feel worse... here she's had a long tough day at work and I am having an anxiety attack. What have I truly got to feel anxious about? I don't know, but it was there. I calmed down fairly quickly, but still I felt like I had robbed her of a peaceful evening and caused her to worry about me. My days are good, sometimes I have to work at occupying myself, that's just something I've got to learn on my own... but I don't want her worrying when she goes to work if I'll be ok by myself. I did my best to reassure her that I was ok, must be hormones. before long we were both exhausted and falling asleep.

    I was awake every couple of hours... bladder calling! I slept well, but not nearly enough. I got up at 5:00 and went through my normal routine pups, coffee, pups, coffee. Tancy and I tried to find the weather but were unsuccessful. How can you have 9000 channels and no weather report on a Sunday morning?! Lots of infomercials, but no weather! Wasn't there a time, not long ago, when the news was on every morning?

    So, Tancy got off to work and I (of course) got online. I posted on Facebook, 20 Things I am Thankful For. I needed to remind myself of everything I have to be thankful for, especially after the pity party I threw for myself last night. I really don't want to do that... I have so much to be thankful for in life. So, I put it down in words, best I could. If you are on Facebook, check it out. Post your own. 20 seems like alot, but really, you'd be surprised how much you have to be thankful for when you put it down like that. And at this moment I am very thankful for my new perspective and renewed appreciation for what I have.

    Mom sent me a text and told me that "Pillow Talk" was on. I love that movie... I love Doris Day. Surprising to you? I can see how it would be... but its true. Doris Day was beautiful and talented. I love her movies and Pillow Talk tops that list. I don't see them on TV anymore, which is a shame. So, anyway, we are going to watch it together and have coffee together. That makes me smile, 12 hours apart and we can share this time together. She's awesome (one of 20 things I am thankful for)!

    Ok, so I am off to watch my movie. I hope you all enjoy your day. I am looking forward to the sun coming up and making everything bright and new today. I have to go get a few things for dinner tonight sometime later, but no rush. Have a great day.

    Love to all!