February 5, 2009

• Hello All!!

  Good morning everyone!! It is still morning, what?! LOL

  It's Thursday, which in a way sucks, because Tancy went back to work today. At least she's on days. Honestly, I shouldn't talk about it sucking at all, she has a good job with amazing benefits that cover me as well... she's providing for us solely, so I need to remember to just be appreciative of that and not focus on the shift, long hours or weekends working. Those are small prices in comparison.

  Anyway, enough of my pep talk to myself. LOL. I don't remember the last day I posted so I will give you a quick run down. Monday Tancy slept till about noon. We decided, instead of doing chores, that we would run some errands. I needed a good pair of shoes to wear with my maternity clothes (my best pair is a dykish pair of hikers, comfortable, but don't exactly look good with everything). I also wanted to go look at Babies R Us... we haven't been in a while and I just wanted to go peruse the racks. From there we went to Mandy's and had dinner and visited a while, then home.

  Tuesday we went to the CPA first thing to see about the best thing to do with our taxes. We are going to file them ourselves and seperately this year. Gotta get that done still, hopefully soon. We then went on to look at some properties. What a bust! The first was trashy looking and NO trees. The second, LOVED the house, but not a tree in sight and too far for Tancy to drive to work. The third was just not going to work, little shot gun house on 25 acres. From there we rode back roads and checked out for sale by owner signs and signs on land. We found a 9.96 acre piece of land with a pond and creek that we kinda liked... but the water is getting muddy again. We ended up having dinner at Mandy's again the home and to bed.

  Wednesday we started early, out to Statesville to look at a property. The land was beautiful, but the house was older and the bedrooms were way too small. So we took some time to stop at the Modular Home lots there in town and check out floor plans and pricing. Again, the water is getting muddy. I started getting a cluster headache so we headed back home. We chilled for quite a while. Then Tancy cleaned the floors and made us dinner. We got our baths and then in bed. I have been sooo exhausted lately. I am not sure if that is because of our pace lately or just another phase in the pregnancy or what. Either way, I am exhausted!

  This morning Tancy got up at 4:45 to get ready for her first day of days. I got up at 5:00 and started my morning ritual. Coffee, pups out, pups in and fed, pour coffee in my eye balls and try to wake up. LOL. I got dressed and ready for technician to get here to fix my internet (the reason I haven't been blogging.... the internet was either slow or just locking the computer up completely). My to my surprise and appreciation he arrived here at 8:00 instead of the end of his window at 12:00. He worked on everything and managed to get things running under the radar so to speak. So I am up and working wonderfully now. I think I have some systems issues. I really need some help with knowing what I can stop from running on start up and what needs to be running... but I don't know anyone who can tell me that. I have all the security stuff going, but I might even have over kill on that as well. I really just need a techy to come and take a look at our system.

  So, the tech left around 10:30 and I have been trying to catch up on everything since he left. I got our wireless phone line hooked to the satelite now so we don't pay the $7.00 a month for the second room. I got the dishes done. Laundry is almost complete. The house is more picked up (though I could do alot more to be honest). But  feel that cluster headache creeping back in. I am seriously considring taking a little nap to try to head that off before it is miserable today. We are having dinner with a good friend tonight and I don't want to have that burning nerve pain in the side of my face for that. We shall see.... I'd like to at least finish the laundry completely before I consider laying down.

  Lillie is moving around more and more lately. She's gettin it this morning. Which is new because she's usually most active (or at least noticeably) at night when I am getting in bed. I think I am getting close to the part of the pregnancy when her wake/sleep schedule diverts from mine. Tuesday made 21 weeks. We are past half way now... I go back to the OB on 2/16 for my next check up, from there on out she's considered "viable". I am sure you all know what that means so I wont go into detail. Outside of being exhausted I have been in a fantastic mood. Laughing and cutting up, light and easy going. I am going to hold on to that and enjoy that for as long as I can. I think Tancy probably feels the same way. LOL. I am just so glad to feel Lillie move more and more distinctly. It's so amazing and makes my heart feel like it is going to bust wide open with love and pride.

  Our calendar for the year is pretty full already. The last half of the year is overwhelming me at this point. March, if all pans out, Dad will make a trip here... it isn't definite, but it's possible and I am SO excited about the possibility! April we will be in Louisiana for nearly a week for the bay shower there. May is the baby shower here, which we don't have to travel for, but we will have family in town and that will require some prep on my part. June is when she's due, though Tancy still feels like she wont come until July. Either way, I figure we will have two weeks or more of family in town with everyone who wants (and plans) to come here. August is the Dean family beach vacation and as excited as I am about it, this overwhelms me the most... its so soon after Lillie will be born and the first trip, a 5 hour drive and a week stay... its pretty daunting for me. I mean, I will still be working on her schedule and breast feeding (hoping that goes well) and it will all just be so new. September or October (I don't know if its set in stone yet) is Jessi and Joe's wedding. If Tancy is off that will be a little easier, but if she's working I will go by myself with Lillie and that is a bit intimidating. Then November is Thanksgiving which we have agreed to spend in North Carolina, thankfully, I love you honey! We may or may not have family here for the holiday. Then, of course, December is Christmas and we are planning on being in Louisiana sometime around the holiday (uncertain as of this time because of Tancy's work schedule). That will be the first time most of my extended family will see Lillie, so its really important to me that we make that trip. That will probably be the first time Maw-Maw will se Lillie just because our schedule is soo full to work in a trip anywhere else in there. Hopefully Mom and Dad & Casie, Chuck and Marlie will be here between her birth and Christmas, but they might not be able to work that out either.

  Can you see why I feel overwhelmed?? Or am I just obsessing? I know I obsess, I am not denying that, but I think that schedule, traveling so soon after her birth and then again in a little more than a month after that, would intimidate even the most seasoned mother expecting a new baby. Maybe not. I'll get through it no doubt, but I'm probably going to blog more as time gets closer for some events about my stress level and try to decompress some in the process.

  In addition to feeling overwhelmed, I am also really worried about Maw-Maw seeing Lillie as soon as we can work that out... and my family getting to see her and have some time with her. Because there are two big events in the Dean family that monopolizes quite a bit of time. That's ok, I just have to work it all out in my head. Also, I don't know when Aunt Jan will get a chance to see her... she's usually got such a ridiculous work schedule. Maybe I can plan a couple day trip there at some point. I have no idea.

  I don't know how all these thoughts fit in my head! Honestly.

  So far I think my Mom & Dad, Tancy's Mom & Dad, Casie (Chuck and Marlie?), Jessi and Missy are planning on being here sometime after she's born. I have no idea who else might be planning that trip or when.

  Ok, I am obsessing... and the more I type the more I find to obsess about. So! I am going to wrap this up, finish my laundry and lay down for a bit. My face is starting to burn and that will only lead to bad things. I hope you all have a great day. The weekend is just a breath away now!

  Love to all!

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