December 17, 2008

• Challenging Evening

  Well, it's 7:23 and the third night of nights. I have to say that tonight is a bit more challenging than the previous two. I have things to do in the house, but thus far, I don't really want to do them.

  I was hoping to have dinner with friends tonight, but that didn't work out... I think that's part of my problem tonight. I was so looking forward to some human interaction, a nice dinner and to just be out of the house. I have tried a couple of different things for dinner. Corn sounded good, so I had a couple of bites... not so good. Then I was craving a frito pie, but the chili didn't taste good to me, had a couple of bites... threw the rest out. Nothing satisfactory at this point, but I can't just keep eating. Food really isn't going to make me feel better, but it would be nice to have something for dinner that tasted good.

  I have given myself an 8:00 deadline, then I HAVE to get off my ass and clean the kitchen. If I get the kitchen done I will be happy. I figure I have been up till nearly midnight the last three nights, I can at least be productive for an hour or two of that additional awake time.

  When things are sucking with the whole night shift thing, I just try to remind myself that I am not the first woman to endure nights. My Mom lived shift work for many, many years. Aunt Jan managed it as well for years. I know there are more women, in my life alone, who have managed living through their spouses odd shifts. I know I can do it... I just have to work really hard at maintaining my schedule and not adapting to hers. This will certainly not be such a struggle when there's a baby who is on a feeding schedule whether I like it or not. Tancy told me to enjoy being able to sleep in and stay up late right now because eventually I will be up late and up early and sleeping when I can. She's so right, I just don't feel productive enough when I don't stick to a routine. Plus I just have to remember this (shift work) is a sacrifice we both agreed to make in order to allow us to have me be home... I can't complain about that... and more than anything I have to remember it is Tancy giving up the most, there will be times when she wont even see the baby because it will be time for sleep when she finally gets home. I truly love her for the things she does for our family.

  The puppies have been full of energy, and therefore making me fairly irritable, its been raining for so long now and they haven't had enough time outside. They are into everything and when they aren't they are either in your face or up your ass. And let me just say that keeping them quiet, in the house, during the day while Tancy is sleeping is quiet a task. Especially since presently they will bark at absolutely nothing... even if they are in their kennels, they can be heard whining or barking throughout the house. Even outside they can't be trusted because they get right by the bedroom window and bark at the neighbors dog, the same dog thats always outside for three years now! LOL. Poor pups.

  I have watched so much reality TV in the last three days that I am beginning to feel dumber! Seriously, I try to get on the computer, play puzzle games or cards, something that challenges my brain (more than TV at least) or research this and that. Even to just read up on baby stuff. But so much TV really does kill brain cells... I am sure of it. Haha! I am sure Fox, ABC, NBC, Lifetime, etc. would love for more people to feel that way!

  Tomorrow is our check up with the OB. Gonna talk to her about what I can do for constipation. I managed a little relief last night. Let me just say that I have never been one for public flatulence, or private for that matter. Not to say that I don't at all, just not typically in front of people. But last night, I would have farted in a room full of people! I was so glad to have the ability to do it again and felt so much better, honestly I wouldn't have cared who was in the room with me, I would have just smiled and said "Excuse me" or "Oh, I feel so much better". No one really prepares you for the fact that your intestines feel as if they have been tied in knots. Not only do you not poop, nothing moves! And then everything hurts because of that! I am sure you wanted to know all that... but I am apparently venting tonight, about everything.

  Tomorrow the guy who is house sitting for us is coming over to go over everything for while we are gone. How much and when the puppies eat (their portions have been cut back) and the fish. Also what needs to happen on the off chance that someone wants to look at the house. Shouldn't take long, just good to go over everything before we hit the road.

  Ok, nothing else to rant about... I've had a headache for most of the day (yes I took Tylenol) and its starting to get pretty intense again. I have about 15 minutes before my self imposed deadline kicks in... think I will go take another round of Tylenol and reward myself (didn't do it last night) with a nice soak in the tub when I am done.

  I hope you all have a great night tonight. The week is almost over and alot of vacations start soon!! Not to mention the holiday kicking off with travel to see loved ones. It's gonna be nice. I am hoping for a white Christmas (good thing we will be in Ohio since its suppose to be in the 70's here on Friday!)!! I know, I am sick!!

  Love to all!

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