May 21, 2009
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Update on my day… so far
So it’s 1:00 here now and I am sitting on the couch, once again. I have been busy though, it isn’t like I have been here the whole time.
I got moving shortly after daylight. I got the laundry cranked up again. I headed outside before it got too hot and cleaned up the carport, swept and then took the hose to all the dirt and cob webs that needed to come down. I washed the landing down at the carport door and even managed to wash up the sweet tea that we spilled yesterday. I washed all the soil away that ended up all over the drive way and sidewalk while we worked on flowers yesterday. I moved the bird feeder that was over the front flower bed, the feed has millet in it and that grows this really huge grain looking stalk. Can’t have that, Tancy worked too hard to get rid of all the weeds in there. So I moved that one out on to a tree on the other side of the drive way. I hung the third basket up on the front porch after moving the wind chime where the feeder was. Tancy has to put up the correct eye bolts for me, I tried but don’t have enough lead in my pencil (yes, I know I don’t have a pencil, but I heard that all my life and it still rings true) to do it myself. Once I got all that done, I filled all of the bird feeders with seed, they were ALL empty!
I came inside for a bit, out of breath and feeling a bit tired. I unloaded and reloaded the dishwasher. I called Maw-Maw, I had been missing her and I know I don’t call her nearly enough. I ended up reading her my letter to Lillie, I knew she would enjoy it and that it would mean something to her. She now wants me to send her a copy to keep. I will type it up and send it to her some time in the next couple of days. I enjoyed talking to her, told her about all I had been doing, she tickles me… if I am doing it, there’s no reason I shouldn’t. If I say I didn’t do it because I don’t think I should, she agrees. I can’t imagine what being pregnant was like for her, there was lots of physical, manual labor to be done, pregnant or not. Then she had all of them without any pain meds… three of them at home!! Jeeze! When I think about being uncomfortable I think about how it was 50+ years ago and figure I’ve got it pretty damn good… central air, no fields to tend, no clothes that have to be scrubbed on a wash board and a wonderful little thing called an epidural! Haha.
I talked to Pops after I talked to Maw-Maw. It’s good to talk to him when I can, he doesn’t often have time while he’s at work, so I was surprised to get him on the phone. We didn’t talk long, I asked him about the doors leaking and what it might be. He said there was a foam kinda thing (my words, not his) that went around the door between it and the frame that might need replaced. We just chatted a bit, he had things going on and I didn’t want to keep him. Just having a few minutes to talk was good enough for me. I miss him a bunch.
I called Casie after I talked to Pops. I almost never talk to her on the phone. I usually don’t call her at work because there are days when she’s usually slammed and I don’t know if she can talk much or not. Getting in touch with her outside of work is pretty tough too. So I did get her, our conversation was mostly me asking her questions and her giving me “Brent” answers… meaning one word indicating she’s busy, side tracked or just not interested. LOL. I figured I should let her get back to it, so we didn’t really talk too long, but it was good to hear her voice. I have been missing her, I tell her all the time, but somehow we don’t seem to make any more time for each other. That breaks my heart. At one point we were so close… now I honestly can feel very disconnected and don’t know much about what’s going on with her, outside of the surface level stuff. That’s not to say its anyone’s fault, I don’t want her reading this and thinking I am saying its all her fault (cause I’m not Case), we both contribute to that. I do miss her terribly. I feel tears burning my eyes just thinking about my sister and how much I miss her.
Once I got off the phone I grabbed something to eat, cottage cheese, and was going to get back to work and then the phone rang. It was a friend of ours calling to see about coming by to get some of the wood we just cut up. I told her I was always home. LOL. She’ll probably come by on Saturday to get it. I have no plans, so that works out just fine. We chatted for a bit about work, home, babies, money, friends, etc. It was a good conversation. I think I am feeling a bit isolated today, disconnected or something. Talking to those who are important to me is always great, but today it has meant the world to talk to my family especially. I guess it’s being pregnant and the hormones. I miss everyone so much more right now than I ever remember missing them. Don’t get me wrong, I always miss them, but it can be really hard lately.
So while I was on the phone I stripped the back bed. I took out the trash in our bathroom. I collected our rugs to wash and put them on after moving the throw blankets into the dryer. I picked up our bedroom a bit and cleared some of the stuff off of the kitchen table. I must admit that my emotions have gotten to me a bit today and I just don’t feel like doing much. I decided that fresh air was a good thing for me and headed back outside. I washed off the front porch, moved the plants around and washed off the whole porch, I washed down the siding which gets dusty under there since no rain rinses it off. I washed the windows down. I washed off the porch steps and the side walk leading to the steps as well. I washed down any spider webs I saw and pretty much anything that looked like it needed a good rinse.
I came back inside at that point and wandered around the house looking for something to do, not because there’s a shortage but because I don’t want to do much. I thought about packing my hospital bag, but for what ever reason that hasn’t seemed to be a big thing for me to get done at this point. I hope I get motivated to do it soon after the shower… if not I’m liable to be packing it while I am in labor! Haha. Wouldn’t that be something, Ms. OCD, anal retentive packing her hospital bag whilst running out the door to get to the hospital?! Now that makes me laugh!
And I am telling you, I have felt so big lately, I don’t care about “dressing” to go to the grocery store. I throw on one of my old t-shirts with paint and stains all over it and a pair of shorts (lucky for me all of my “regular” clothes still fit) and just go. I waddle myself up in the Food Lion, grab a buggy and get what I need. I know I look like a ragamuffin, but I don’t care. Hell, I can’t catch a good breath half the time, I am not overly concerned with being cute on an every day level. Now, if we are going somewhere, I do put on the maternity stuff and look presentable. Otherwise, to hell with it. LOL. That must mean I am getting close to being “ready”. Haha.
So I need to get things ready to get dinner going soon. I am just waiting on Tancy to tell me if she prefers pork chops or chicken fried steak. Then I’ll know I either have to go to the store or to the freezer. I don’t have a preference, but I told her I need Italian one night soon, maybe Monday night. I have been craving it baked ziti!! That’s probably my new favorite, just tomato sauce, not meat sauce… yummmy! I need a good ziti recipe, anyone??
Alright kids. I need to wrap this up. No telling what else I will do today. Seems like as soon as I decide to just chill out for the rest of the day I am up and doing 10 things… so there’s just no way to know what will happen between now and bedtime. I love you all, very much. Have a great rest of the day!
